The pulse of sleep is sucking at my eyes
I’m nursing it like a baby while it sucks me dry
And I’m staying up talking to a phone like god
And like a mother, there is never respite
I’m sinking my hands into the piano like mud
I’m hoping and praying that I get stuck
I’m staying up talking to a phone like god
I’m resisting the trip while I’m falling in love
Cause you choose which one you want to rule you the best
A man or the never ending desire of success
I know which one is in my bed tonight
Dinner’s on the table with a pen and a knife
The meal tastes like paper and ink and pain
The words are different but the song’s always the same
And while I’m seated and while I write and chew
I try to not make the song about you
I can be your mother
I can be a dream
I can make it look like it never happened
Leave it clean
Oh I could be your friend
Or I could be on my back
I could beg or I could bully
I could brace you for impact
Oh I could be counterfeit
I could be real
I could be the wound in your neck you tell your friends you can heal
I could be 500 virgins
I could be 500 whores
I could be anything anything anything
But yours
You read to me quietly on the window sill
Our bodies will never be close enough if they tried, which they will
You either keep a close eye or a closed eye on it
I watch myself while I ride the emotional dick
Cause you choose which one you want to fuck you in place
A man or the the ache in your legs backstage
I know which one gets me on my knees
Gripping my hair like I’m made of sheets
The voice in my ear says “remember the bet”
I’m nodding at nothing, I’m holding my breath
Remember remember remember the bet
His love feels like a threat
I can be your mother
I can be mad
I could talk utter bullshit or I could be matter of fact
Oh I could be broken
Or I could be whole
I could be something to fix in your New Year’s resolution goal
Oh I could be an angel
I could be a jerk
Make a plan to save me, you can choose if you want it to work
(save me, save me, baby)
I could be a purity to ruin
Corrupt for you to restore
I could be anything anything anything but yours
I can be your mother
I can be your dad
I could be the family that you always wished you had
I could be a kiss
I could be a hit
Lemme know if you ever figure out the difference
Oh I could a fact
I could be a lie
I could be the truth you search for your whole life but never find
I could be your bravado
I could be gone tomorrow
I could be anything, anything, anything, anything,